it feels like there's so much to get done...so much that i know im not going to do...that the End Is Near ( Read more... )

it strikes me as the year draws to a close that my life seems to have recurring themes. they haunt me endlessly, and i hope that once i leave the shore, some new, original problems completely unrelated to my current woes will arise. i know it is probably not wise to wish for new problems, but it seems more futile to wish for no problems at all. ( Read more... )

cassandra's boss thinks we are a couple.

weird.

i was really sad today...and i cried...i had all these anxiety dreams last night.

okay.

shawnee i'm glad to know you think i'm DEAD thus you did not tag me.

bitches.

the sun shines
and leaves blow
and my hope like autumn is turning brown.

It struck me, as my sister turned 13, that as she becomes more and more like me I appreciate even her faults. or i suppose, my faults, which she has thus chosen to manifest. for example, she tried to vehemently explain to me why rolling her eyes was not disrespectful, but just something she thought was funny. (I agree, and did the same thing, ( Read more... )

so since the start of this school year...my mother has been periodically controlling ( Read more... )

i know it's not nice, or right, or mentally "appropriate," but sometimes i feel so overwhelmed with worthless obligations i just think about going to bed and not waking up. no worries then, right? no midterm, no SAT, no anglosaxon riddles, no job, no scholarships, no books, no college applications, no college, no school, none. zil. ahhh, it ( Read more... )

i LOVE the movie strangers on a train. it's so good ( Read more... )

today was nice. i felt loved ( Read more... )

im watching Gladiator. when he goes home and his house is in ruins and his wife and son's dead bodies are hanging, charred, always gets me really upset. his wife and son were so pretty, and he was so close, and everything was still smoking when he got there. if he'd been there a day sooner, they would have lived. poor maximus. he has nothing ( Read more... )

i feel interesting ( Read more... )