I just realised how angry I am at certain events over the last 8 weeks. And how it has made me feel completely incapacitated, I am stuck in this horrible world of pretending and playing by certain rules.

Though I guess that we all are.
Everyone is alone.

The problem with living in Penryn and doing a degree that means you spend most of your life out of uni is that most of the time you are alone. I don't do well being alone; I get bored, and then I start trying to do work, and then I fall asleep and then I wake up an hour later with a headache and I feel really depressed. I never achieve anything ( Read more... )

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I feel that I should never open my mouth with my random thoughts, they seem to go on to some other level.
Though I think certain people like to be the victim and play up to this idea too often it is almost always irritating, people seem to think its a great idea to forget balance as well. I think that is a revelation I have has in the past 24 hours ( Read more... )

I spend a lot of my time thinking about what I am going to say over and over. Yet in a debate I always start to speak and then loose my words.
I think that I always feel that my ideas and thoughts are swept to the side of unimportance, though I think that is more to do with my inability to be able to put what I actually feel into words. ( Read more... )

I need saving. I don't mean that in everyday terms but I need a new release, and I think for me it will come in the form of maybe a new camera. And I can't decide where my heart needs to go next.

I deep down wish that I could draw, but I don't have the confidence.

Recently being given all of Rasputina's albums has reminded how much I love the cello, and love her sick voice.
And how I am probably very weird for loving them so much.


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This makes my life.

Why do people say weather conditions instead of snow?

' What should have not happened did  happen: the break up. What should have happened which did not happen: the serious accident, death. It is with such eventualities that one negotiates a vengeful, bitter intimacy - or a cynical complicity- with the course of things.' - Jean Baudrillard