Things have been going really well for me lately. Today I helped my family with cleaning our house. I picked out a grip of flowers and planted them in the flower beds that I weeded in the front yard. I got really dirty and got slivers from the planting soil, but I like gardening. I also cleaned my room which always makes me feel really good. Its ( Read more... )

Yesterday was really fun, and it was exactly what I needed to brighten my mood. Today ruined it already though.

Tomorrow is a very important day for me. I'm taking my test to be licensed as a massage therapist. I think its going to be really easy, but I'm might be taking it a little too lightly. I'm sure when I get there I'll be more nervous. Right now I'm not nervous about it really. My friend Joey said that it seemed easy, and a lot of other people have ( Read more... )

Angry tears. I'm so sad these days. I try so hard. I give so much of myself. I give until I'm empty and I hate myself. I give until everything turns gray and ugly. This is the the third time I've cried today. I'm not getting enough back. I'm like a dried out lake. I haven't seen replenishment. I don't even have enough passion left in me to cut ( Read more... )

I went to church today. The message was really good. It helped me to see that a lot of my attitudes in life are good and right, and it gave me new perspective on some challenges I'm going through. I think the part that touched me the most were the three points of being influencial ( Read more... )

Alone with a stomach turned the wrong way ( Read more... )

I talked to Matt on the phone last night. It was really nice. I'm really convused lately, and theres a lot of things going on in my life. But I'm looking to God and he is really answering my prayers. Giving me strength, protecting me, and guiding me to my next steps in life. I really have to rely on God now, because falling away has caused me a lot ( Read more... )

I guess it makes since that one of the best weeks of my life would be followed by the worst week of my life.

Matts gone. I miss him, I didn't want to let him go. Its half my fault, but really he messed things up. We shouldn't have rushed. God even warned me several times. I care about Matt a great deal, but what he did is messed up and my friends and family would never let me see him again. Its good that they care, but it feels like the end of the world ( Read more... )

A great day with Matt. Video games, Basketball, football, Best buy, freaking awesome mexican food and candy. All the things in life you really need and love.