Waiting for 2006.

The worse I do, the less I post.

I need to make a plan for next year. I will make it and stick to it NO MATTER WHAT.

Today wasn't such a great day. My face looks... a little fatter. Gross.

So my Dad takes me and my stepsister out to rent some movies ( Read more... )

SO. My friends cancel, which ruins my excuse to not eat. ARR! Now my Dad's probably gonna make me eat. ): And my stomach already feels so full it hurts. :(...

This has nothing to do with anything, but I just wanted to show you the random conversation I had with this cute boy earlier today: ( lolzz~ )

So I just had some tortellinis - I was going to throw out like 1/3 of it 'cause I was full but my Dad was like NONO FINISH IT OFF blahblah so I had to eat it. Now I feel overly full. Gross. D: But I only ate it because tonight I'm going out with my friends, and I can just say I ate with them. Better to eat now than later so I can actually burn off ( Read more... )

Right now I am wearing the dress that I was wearing when I found out that I was 130. My stomach was like poking out and my my love handles were positively gross. Now, I'm even wearing a skirt (one that goes up to the waist) underneath it, and my stomach looks flat. My stomach has never in my life looked flat, with or without clothes on. I also ( Read more... )

Today is a new day. My old friend is (probably) coming into town with a couple of her friends, so we might hang out. :) I found out that she is living with two of her friends in THEIR OWN HOUSE! I am so fucking jealous. It's a really nice house too - but she works so much to pay the bills. I really wish I could do that, but I don't know if my ( Read more... )

I'm so fucking depressed. I didn't know what to do so I just had 270cals worth of chocolate.

I'm such a failure.

So he's not dead yet. I have no idea what is yet to come, though.

I don't even know why I just ate, I sure wasn't hungry. But all I had was a cup of water with a beef bouillon powder packet shit (10cals), and I cut up a tiny little piece of chicken and put the pieces in. Definitely below 50 calories.