I feel so sick.

I think he just killed himself.

God, prove me wrong.

So we're having dinner in a bit. Chicken, salad and potatoes. I'm not even hungry right now, though. I'm gonna try to eat as little as possible without drawing attention to myself. Bad thing is, sometimes when I'm not hungry and I start to eat, I suddenly get hungry. Arr ( Read more... )

So my Dad just came home, pulled a Nintendo DS out of his bag and gave it to me. I think he bought it 'cause my sisters have Gameboy Advances. I feel bad that he did this, even though I didn't whine or ANYTHING! I think the money could've probably been put to better use. :/ But I just have to think... it's just another thing to distract me from ( Read more... )

I just had a horrible last two hours. My ex kept calling me, an absolute mess, threatening to kill himself or run away forever. I WANT him to be happy, I don't want him to be depressed because all I can think about is food. I found out he took a bunch of pills yesterday. He used to be addicted a year ago, and I know he hasn't touched them since ( Read more... )

So I'm starting off the morning with a few sips of some orange juice - no added sugar, water or preservatives. It's delicious.

Not gonna eat for the rest of the day if I can help it.

Oh yeah, and I'm wearing my size 7 pants from a few years ago right now. I feel great.

My ex just called me, crying, and just about jumped out of a window ( Read more... )

I remember when I was about 10 or so, thinner than a thread and everyone noticed. I was diagnosed with Scoliosis during that year, and told it only happened to 'really skinny, tall people'. Now I'm just... average. Fat and normal height pretty much. I feel ashamed when I make the yearly trip to the hospital in Vancouver to get x-rays, when I see ( Read more... )

Oh my God my parents made us go out and I just got fries but at the theatre I had a couple handfuls of popcorn but holy fuck I had so many calories and I barely ate anything what the hell ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh my stomach can't handle all the grease this is horrible. :/

So, I haven't eaten anything yet today. I don't think I want to. We might be going to the movies in a couple of hours, but I'm not sure yet. If we do, I'm just gonna get a bottle of water and ignore the popcorn bags being passed around me. We've (my family) been going to the movies a lot lately. Last time I just drank my water, and although I was ( Read more... )

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