i was talkin with sonia the other night... well last night, ne ways, we were talkin about the airforce. and i told her that i decided that i wanted to join instead of her so that it wont feel like im depending on her and shes takin care of me. and we will be able to live our own life together and start a family when the time comes. we will have our ( Read more... )

just sittin here while sonia is out havin fun with her friends. normally it wouldnt bother me, but there is this guy with them that has a damn crush on her and i dont like it and it bothers me. i dont know why cuz i know sonia loves me and i trust her... but i just get this bad feelin about it. not sure what kinda feelin it is. mebbe like i wanna ( Read more... )

well my family no longer cares for me. the only family that i do have is my loving and caring girlfriend who i love more than ne thing this world could possibly offer me, and which im eternally greatful that she is there for me, and my grandparents that would do ne thing in their power to help me out when i need it. i mean, my mom and step dad dont ( Read more... )

and you might ask me, "the day of what?" and to that i answer... what the fuck do you care!!! lol. just kiddin. this day really has no significance except the part where i woke up. and i know its been a while since ive updated this thing, but i mean, what does it really matter. its not like ne one reads this thing. i mean sonia does, every once in ( Read more... )

the unthinkable has happened. me and my love has broken up... again. and before anybody has any one sided opinions, we both broke up because we thought that we should. we were arguing alot recently and decided that we needed to figure out if we wanted to be with eachother or not. and by being apart and seeing other people. we can decide if we are ( Read more... )

yeah, this whole two jobs thing is gettin old really quick, and sonia workin fulltime is aging even faster. but i guess thats just how life is... all fuckin work. thats what ive been told ne ways, and its startin to seem that way. so i guess i just have to endure it until the next big change in my life comes around, which will prolly be school in ( Read more... )

Being alone for just a few days is just as bad as being along for a few years... except that it doesnt last as long, but the feeling is all the same. today was our 8 month anniversary thingy, which is the longest we been together out of all the times that we've been a couple. and even though we both had to work today, we were gonna hang out ( Read more... )

"GET BIG BITCH ( Read more... )

its been so long since ive updated... yet again. i know that i dont put ne thing in herer that much ne more. but thats mainly cuz i cant access the site from school and thats where i spend the most time on the computer. so.. lets see what all has happened ( Read more... )

damn... i just cant seem to get on the computer ne more to update this damned thing. although, i kinda think everyone stopped reading it cept my lovely smurf. but thats all the audience and attention that i need. so whats happened. i got my tooth out. that was painful... not really cuz i dont remeber a damned thing. lol. i been workin a lil more ( Read more... )