I know it's going to happen. I've pretty much prepared myself for it, even. Even still, I'm not ready to hear other people talk about it, especially with an air of nonchalance. Probably never...

This seems like the best forum to just write something to write it down, not with the intention of anyone reading it. I had a dream last night, and it was one of the worst dreams I've ever had, but I need to retain it, because dreams like that are so few and far between. I think it was 4 or 5 years from now, and I found out everyone had been lying ( Read more... )

I don't think I've written a "real" entry here in years, but tonight feels like I'm 18 again, somehow. Not just tonight, really. Recently, in general, I feel like I'm heading towards rock bottom, and I don't really know why. This is not how I imagined life to be at 24. Right now I really just want to sit with a stranger, someone that knows nothing ( Read more... )

So the movie "The Babysitter's Club" was on tonight, so I had it on while I was eating (look, I adored everything about BSC my whole childhood) and I actually thought about the ages of the characters...in the movie, Stacey is 13 and goes out with a guy that is 17...did no one see anything wrong with this? That's potentially a senior in high school ( Read more... )

While at work ( Read more... )

On the way back from PA tonight, one of their radio stations edited "Brown-Eyed Girl" of its "making love in the green grass" line. Should I really be surprised, considering their religious stations outnumber "regular" stations at least 2 to 1...

Even though he'll never see it...

Nate's in love with a stripper
She poppin she rollin she rollin

While I'm not "taking back" any of what I wrote in the last entry, I would like to say that I feel a lot better. I was really out of sorts that night. I'll attribute it to 2 of those people of the 3-4 mentioned feeling exceptionally shitty that night too. One called me from the hospital that night, and I didn't know the other was in a horrible ( Read more... )

I don't really know if what I'm doing is healthy ( Read more... )

I feel like such a loser. I didn't vote today. I didn't get my Mich. absentee ballot on time, and I'm not a Penn. resident yet. I mean, I guess I shouldn't really get to vote for Mich. since I don't live there any more, but I really would have liked to vote on some of those proposals. I can't even watch the election results for Mich. here. ( Read more... )