Surprise surprise... no Im not back online, but Im using my grandma's computer. Today I got mad at Ben for skipping school. I was ranting to someone else about it, but then she informed me of how much hes cleaned up his act and how he used to not are about anything and she feels its obvios that he cares about me. That made me feel alot better. I ( Read more... )

When my world comes crashing down will you be there to save me, or will you be out getting high?

I was sad. I def. started crying. i felt sick all day and then I didnt get to see Ben. Prolly out skipping class or getting high. It makes me sad to think that he'd rather do that then be with me. I dont want to set rules and get mad if he breaks them though. I dont want to be that kind of gf. I really might love him, but Im not sure. I just dont ( Read more... )

My mom still makes comments about how he ruined alot of my life. She says its his fault Guys arent allowed over anymore. She says its his fault that things will never be the same. I think it may be mine. Perhaps I shouldnt have over reacted. Perhaps I should have just kept my mouth shut. That seems to be a big problem of mine. I just dont know what ( Read more... )

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My grades

AP psych. - A
CP sociology - B
Orchestra - A
French 4 - B
Yearbook - A
Adv Eng Sur 3 - B
Gym - B

I did not like to be touched, but it was a strange dislike. I did not like to be touched because I craved it too much. I wanted to be held very tight so I would not break. Even now, when people lean down and touch me or hug me or put a hand on my shoulder, I hold my breath. I turn my face. I want to cry ( Read more... )

I went to Holy Hill today, but Im not going to bother with details cause it was a pain and the ass and I dont feel like whining. Good news is I dont have to go to church tomorrow morning. Anyway, Guess Sarah told Chris about Ben... Im not mad Sarah, you didnt know. He had to find out sooner or later. But you gotta tell me how he took it. what else ( Read more... )

I scared the hell out of Fishie and Tink... it was funny as hell...