butterfly life suspended ( Read more... )

( diatribe )

it's 4am and i'm working on my day off. helping out a friend= +2 on a karmic dice roll. i do not want to be here however and i'm now in the early stages of sheer and utter boredom. i'm fighting valiantly though...so far i've eaten a pear, a baggie of fruit loops, two oatmeal pies, a banana, a bag of jalapeno flavored chips, a milky way and half ( Read more... )

( THE ENTERTAINMENT VALUE OF VOMIT )

( traipsing through psychosis )

too many questions, too few answers. i am wrong, i am right. i am not enough, or possibly too much. maybe what i am is not that important after all.

in what. in me?? most of time, i suppose. in others? in humanity in general? experience dictates a negative response. how depressing. in a higher being?? a greater purpose?? most definitely, although admittedly not in any orthodox sense. here's the thing of it. my existence is imperfect. susceptible as everyone else to the inevitable ( Read more... )

yesterday i turned twenty five years old. aaron called me at exactly midnight to sing me happy birthday. twice! he loves me and i love him :) --deanna got me two cards, both of which made me laugh my ass off. she's a funny funny girl. and faith made me a penis-shaped cake. pictures will be posted soon. ah haha!!! a longer, far more ( Read more... )

today i overslept twice. that is impressive. currently i am eating cool ranch doritos and drinking a pineapple soda. one satisfying, one refreshing. it is a day to enjoy the little things in life. i mean, i could live in a hell where people don't even know that pineapple soda exists. oh the horror ( Read more... )

and so it begins......