I can't believe it's Christmas Eve and nearly the end of 2002. It seems this year went by really fast, in my life at least ( Read more... )

nothing gets you thinking like sifting through old papers stuffed away in crowded drawers. i don't know why i write & i don't know why i save anything. its incredibly annoying for me to read over stupid jotted down forthemoment poems and look at little odds and ends that remind me of people that are no longer in my life. so, i threw a good ( Read more... )

sometimes i just don't want anyone to know me.

family christmas party last night. i went over to codys and he was acting weird. and i was acting weird. and i wanted to start crying because things were feeling weird. only because im so bleepin weird. i drove out to Herriman with him quietly accompanying me in the passenger seat. he mixed red wine with white wine and was feeling sick. we got ( Read more... )

im going to do a quick little entry before i go slap on some more makeup and fix my hair for work ( Read more... )

today i shall pick up my check and shop for more xmas presents for codypants. and then go to work. and then stand around at work and miss him every second cause i can't see him today. *whimpers* i don't care if im being mushy, im telling my true feelings so you can go ahead and fuck off if you have a problem with it ( Read more... )

cousin IT coming at ya ( Read more... )

I had a dream the other night that the character "Baby" from the movie Dirty Dancing shot me in the back-seat of a car. It was weird. I'm not too sure why I'm updating, I'm mostly just bored. I was thinking...I wish there was a girl around that I could relate to more. Someone I could sing Ani and Sleater-Kinney songs with. Someone that would ( Read more... )

its one of those nights where when he gets sad in his voice you want to hold him and start crying. and its one of those nights where you get a craving for some coffee and you drive around at 9pm by yourself and all the places are just closing down and you're listening to tori amos really loud in your car and you start crying and you don't really ( Read more... )

the tori concert was amazing. all i could say as i was walking out of the venu was "wow". she opened with wampum prayer and then the curtain fell and she walked out on stage and did a little bow to the audience and walked over to her piano and played "a sorta fairytale", which is beautiful on the cd but onethousand times better live, in my ( Read more... )