Okay okay, you knew this was coming ( Read more... )

If I haven't been clear about this before, Justin is a hero of mine. Last night, we were talking, and he (as so many times before) is able to articulate exactly what's happening. When I listen to the tales of others, including my own falling back on me, I can't often see exactly what's happening. How is it that so many of us have lost the ability ( Read more... )

Illness has a tendency to break down the body so that it weeps in many places. Where am I? That’s a simple enough question. During my stupor, I wonder how best to adapt to ADD rather than drug around it. What is it that makes the matter worse? That we juggle or become less efficient jugglers? That we attempt to gather the world in our pockets or ( Read more... )

So, I think I should just put a book together. A book of love poems. I think I should ink my printer and let a few fly out, mark them up, send them back through, and mark them up again. First: go fishing. Journal, archives, lists and lists. Don't worry about how everything is going to fit, just find what you like and lift it out ( Read more... )

This month has been a whirlwind of sorts and has shown me various things that I've needed to be shown. Namely: what the fuck is next. Namely, that I need to start feeling more positive about everything. I've been so negative and grumpy for the past couple of months and it's gotten me nowhere. Goals ( Read more... )

A pattern ( Read more... )

Wild (the film adaptation) came out yesterday and I saw it this afternoon wary that it starred Reese Witherspoon, wary in general. Overall, I was touched by it. Shed some tears and reassessed some things in my own life--the mark of a good film, yes? I guess if I had to name thing that really bugged me most was that the book didn't focus that much ( Read more... )

Todd and I were going to be married this morning in my sleep. He had the whole thing ready to go and the colors were pink. At least most of it was pink and the black tuxedos. He stood there waiting for me to show up and marry him, but I paced in my apartment, saying aloud: I can't do this, I can't do this, I can't. So I left him standing there. And ( Read more... )

This morning in my sleep, I received a letter from NYU:
You've been accepted for graduate study. The place doesn't ( Read more... )

I yelled at Jeff. He yelled back. Now he isn't speaking to me. We've fought more in the past few months than we ever did when we were actually dating. Justin might be right--Jeff is in a different mind space. Well, I believe the phrase was, "a big baby." Although more blunt than I choose to call the situation, the truth is, I think I'm too ( Read more... )