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Another day of misery.
So it looks like I have a promising future of: A) Brutal withdrawals (cant afford my Rx), B)Bitter loneliness, C)Self-loathing ( Read more... ) -
I don't know how, but I think I want to die. Help me.
Yes, you read that right. I find myself more and more pre-occupied on my own death. I've lost pretty much everything and it's all my fault ( Read more... ) -
Charlie don't surf.
Surf is back, I hope. I went out today. Smashed my knee up just as I got out, lucky the real pain didn't start until I got home later ( Read more... ) -
Out of my fuckin gourd
Seraquel = Random Haikus from me.
words, cheap things to fill
crumble, dry out, fade with time
love requires more.
sun rises, sun sets,
spring, summer, autumn, winter
alone on my path.
Am I clingy or just angry for being stupid? -
Fuck Parallel Universes
I want that universe to be ours. Restraint, understanding and plain simple madness. I don't know how to feel at times. So much emotional energy just swirling about me and still the path is tough to follow ( Read more... ) -
Goddammit how come I can't get over you????
It takes me so long to have feelings, like waiting for concrete to set.. Then when I have them, things go to hell. I want someone to love so bad it hurts, I had that and due to my insecurity and cowardice, I lost it ( Read more... ) -
Sucking it up
It hurts. Plain and simple. I want to be free and not have this hotel of shit encasing me.
Have to slough off the past for a possible happy future? Already having love leave me due to me being a spineless tool.
The further difficulty is rectifying past for a brighter future.
Who knows, going to drown myself in Korean food. -
Who?
So another day, another head full of thoughts ( Read more... ) -
On my existence a little..
Blah blah, yes it's been years but now I'm compelled ( Read more... ) -
Oh yeah, I'm still alive.
Talk about a life of madness. Also a life of change.
In short order: Got injured and failed out of a chance to go shoot people.
Oh yeah, what a bummer.
Other than that..well, maybe I'll post in the near future. As in the next 6 months or so!