I say all the things on here that I wish I could tell to a close friend. since mel ignores me, ALi is half way around the world, and all my other friends are absorbed in college or a relationship I write here ( Read more... )

maybe it sucks now but I figure this will help later. I am always the youngest at my jobs. no one my age that I know is living completely on there own with no help from there parents. maybe this will help me reach my goal of having a bakery sooner ( Read more... )

need to fold laundry but fuck that It's my day off. made stew for dinner...wish I could eat it. Chris said he'd be off by 5, therefore I was at his job at 5. makes sense. I waited for a half hour then I drove home...fml. He takes advantage of me so much! sometimes I think he just wants a housemade not a girlfriend! I cook, clean, bring home 3 X ( Read more... )

Two jobs...two menus to design...life is moving so fast! First day off tomorrow that I have had in weeks im siked! too bad work screwed me over with my paycheck. at least next weeks check will be HUGE! hopefully I can start saving for a philly trip for my b-day. Also I need to go to north carolina to see ali for her birthday in august...ROAD TRIP ( Read more... )

boy I am a whiny little brat on here. things are better with chris however. I don't know that anything happened...I think I have just started accepting that no one can tell me how relationships are supposed to work. I still kind of want someone to say that we are perfectly normal and in love and that is how we are supposed to act 6+ months living ( Read more... )

he is finally in bed...I couldn't sleep because I keep thinking how distant we are..so im in the living room crying just like christmas time...I hate this so much. why can't things be like they were at school. how did this happen. Where are my friends. Im so incredibly depressed. I need help but I don't know who to talk to. It just keeps getting

Friday nights I used to go out with the girl or boys...depending on the night. Now I sit and sulk. The boy makes it no better. how the hell is he content on just sitting on the couch for hours and hours. I don't understand! I wish I had a piano here. All I have is a guitar. sadly every song I want to learn is for piano! I am so tired of feeling ( Read more... )

I wish I had someone I could talk to...

every day is like the last. I go to work, come home and clean, sleep and start again. its getting to me. I went out last week with a friend from work..that was nice. I could tell Chris was miffed but he didn't say anything. I mean the guy is about my moms age and from Syria..not exactly cheating on your boyfriend material. Still having the awful ( Read more... )

things are finally settling down. Love my new job, going to try to implement better desserts lol. american desserts in an asian place I love it lol. If I can get chef scott away from coconut things might just work also I need to somehow make him think it was all his idea...works every time ( Read more... )