I have been so depressed lately. I am finally getting homesick. not for my house but my parents... weird I know. I spend the better part of growing up trying to escape them and now I miss them. I mean its legit most 20 years olds (in this country at least) are still living at home or at college. I miss having people around all the time and ( Read more... )

I told myself I wasent going to write in here anymore but things are BLEAK! fuck this shit! dkfjspdkmfsdnfondsfndsfdsf. more tomorrow

I am sitting here reading all these amazing pastry blogs. I hope I write one, one day! this one called eggbeater talks about food in almost a run on sentence like poem. this one about stout has really caught my heart ( Read more... )

Grandbo finally passed away today. didnt hit me until just now, probably because I just got a second away to myself. My mom waited to tell me until Chris got home. hell if I know why, I can't cry in front of him. He gets so weird. so now I am crying thinking about how I didn't get to know him as well as I would have liked to. It's so weird thinking ( Read more... )

Dani came over yesterday and like every year we get together and fry everything. pay days, cheese sticks, marshmallows, resses, pickles! the whole nine yards! It was nice catching up and hearing the latest gossip ( Read more... )

ever imagine what your life would be like when you were little. In my head I would have wonderful boyfriends who would bring me flowers and kiss me on the cheek. I thought that I would get married youngish and be so in love. My house would be perfect and trendy as would the way I dress. I knew I would love my job and have a million friends to hang ( Read more... )

oh my family. cleaning so I don't have to think about it...

so. I got the job at birch and barley. Hated it. quit. Now I am right back where I started from. useless ( Read more... )

chris and I are on a slippery slope to awful relationship hell. he is a constant douche. never says anything nice unless he needs to "get some". UGH! Why didn't I see this coming. Why is he such a sore losing, debbie downer-ish, sexist, pig, whore! dufhsonfpownfownc ( Read more... )

crying in the kitchen. cant stop. I hate this. please make it stop...