stuck inside today. chris's work friend came to pick him up. my tires are so shitty they cant weather a sprinkle of rain let alone 2 and a half feet of snow! Chris is slightly ticked that I didn't get up, shovel all the snow off my car, try to get out of the parking lot and side streets that are mostly ice, and drive his non-driving ass to dc. hah ( Read more... )

I miss my family. I know they are only a half hour down the road but I miss my old family. My sister has always been a bitch but lately she has been pulling way to many shots at me. My mom has gone crazy trying to help my grandfather with his cancer, my grandmother with her disillusionments, and my uncles with alcoholism and divorce. I was sad ( Read more... )

I am tired of trying so hard. I try when I do the dishes. I try when I do the laundry. I try when I drive everywhere. I try when I try to talk about something being wrong. I try SO hard. and it never makes any difference to him. fml. I give up.

I know that yesterday is gone and it won't come back to me ( Read more... )

alright so low point, past. jury is still out on hello cupcake I called and they are still interviewing I will know by later this week. Chris and I had a huge blow out last night into today. He is driving me crazy in a bad way. I think he wants me to be some kind of 50's housewife, you know do laundry clean dishes rub his...shoulders...that kind ( Read more... )

I am not happy anymore. Im out of work, There are no friends here, my family sucks, and worst of all chris has pretty much gone into hibernation. He hardly pays attention to me, has never done anything romantic for me, and the one gift ive ever recieved from him was a tea pot. Now don't get me wrong I know guys dont get hints and you shouldnt ( Read more... )

I don't cry anymore. I was thinking today I really do not remember the last time I cried. I used to all the time. I have no boys, enemies, homework, ect. therefore no crying. My mom and aunt were crying about my grandfather today, as much as I would like to I can't. Its sad but I guess Im just not as close as they are. Of course this was all ( Read more... )

another interview yesterday. went well I think. usually I go for a pastry cook position this time I went for pastry assistant. It's looking good so far, if I get this job I will get to manage people and I will be on salary from the get go! lots of cleaning these days. I would say I feel bad that chris is at work and Im not but I saved a shit ( Read more... )

So I ended up not taking the job at restaurant eve. I was going to call and say something but chris and I discussed it and..I wouldn't be happy. Thats why I'm a pastry chef that is why I left post. If I wanted to be unhappy I would have been a doctor lawyer business person like the rest of my friends! So today I did my interveiw at cork and I am ( Read more... )

friend from college died on halloween from a drunk driver. We werent super close, like I hadn't talked to him since college but it still freaks me out that you can be perfectly fine..then just gone...