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To find the reason to continue
I feel somehow expected to be capable, It ought to therefore come automatically that given I will work, I will succeed, I will focus, I will complete my exams brilliantly, I will graduate with nearly-straight As. (H1 Chinese I can't help, after all.)
I don't know why. I'm tempted to say it's all a façade that I'm keeping up. I'm a mess underneath, I ( Read more... ) -
Exhuming
Ah shoot.
I've come to the conclusion that I simply can't write on Tumblr.
I post, I link, I reblog. Occasionally, I find recourse to rant. These are all useful, valid ways of communication. But there's something missing. I can't write, staring at the Tumblr page. It makes my fingers itch. I flip through my numerous open tabs. I have the attention ( Read more... ) -
new chapters
To close the circle, I've moved to TumblrIt's been a while since I've opened the LJ Post An Entry page. It tugs at my heart, a little. LJ keeps many of my memories. These journals keep record of what remains dear to me, now further on in the passage of time ( Read more... ) -
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Wish that I could keep up with NaNoBloMo. But it seems the wrong time for that kind of regularity
(to verbalise the monotony of my thoughts. They go in cycles - joy, pain, boredom, amusement, tiredness. I sleep. They drift, even in my subconsciousness.)
Even I don't have that much to say. I don't particularly like talking at people.
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All things considered, I'd like to stop wanting to make people happy ( Read more... ) -
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It's almost like crossing items off the grocery list right now:
one weekend of hardcore Chinese
one afternoon to hammer out Insights&Reflections for PW
two weeks of relative normalcy and 'regular' classes
one week to iron out Oral Presentation
(to break & to build bridges, & place the capstone on our project)
two weeks of restructured timetabling
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Hello all.
First, an early warning: I've just signed up for NaBloPoMo. Expect the worst. ;)
(I have the worst timing, no? The day before my H1 Chinese exam, the usual distraction strikes.
Shall we call this a brief study break? Hopefully yes, if I am able to kick myself off and continue revision in ten minutes flat.)
Now, why've I done this?
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It's a strange thing, the way that the world turns in both darkness and light.
Some of us believe that we have the light, yet we find it so easy to let it be dimmed by our own desires and the weakness of our flesh, that which is of us but does not possess our true essence: we find it easy to let it clothe the nakedness of our spirits, that which ( Read more... )
