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one last fuck you before starting again
FUCK YOU, EMPLOYER FOR HAVING THE GALL TO SAY I'M NOT CUT OUT FOR THIS BECAUSE I'M BOTH TOO SELF-LOATHING AND SELF-INVOLVED ( Read more... ) -
from the earth to you
dear lolo m ( Read more... ) -
why am I made to be enemy #1?
or rather, why am i making myself assume that role?
is it because i really do believe it,
or is it because it's just always easier to? -
attempts #2
i don't talk much when it really counts,
i apologize
it's uncouth how i talk too much, too small,
otherwise
i eulogize you in present tense,
underhanded
i overstew you in my soup of woes and, still,
comes out bland-ed
you think me smug i know,
it's in your eyes
i hide my every limb from you and, here,
2 of 60 whys. -
attempts #1
the greyscale unfolds into a broader spectrum: color ( Read more... ) -
throwing everything out the window
minor epiphany that has been stewing in me since mass with father lai, my favorite priest if only because his chinese tongue slips on the hard c's: in the movement towards a purpose, it's the how, and not the what, that first counts ( Read more... ) -
another thing
this is okay, this is good. you didn't get the teaching gig, which rounds out our failures for the year with an even 2/2. i'm trying to say this with the least amount of sarcasm possible, ironically enough, since this is something i really wanted, especially when pitted against that weird pseudo law pipe dream ( Read more... ) -
chart your depression
ennui likes to creep into the spaces you leave unguarded: in the car when you're driving along to a rightly matched song, alone, in your bed, when your eyes burst open from minute sleep. you ride these waves out, find distractions ( Read more... ) -
skinning my knees first
i don't know where in, or where out, my life is going. and this time it's actually different, different that it bears being written down. not getting in* really means it's the end of the road for all that i know, the metrical romance of the school-years and the mid-terms and the sem-breaks. oh fuck here it comes, the great big push out unto the ( Read more... )