ha not that anyone reads my own journal or anything but i thought i'd update it for myself. I stopped drinking last Thursday so i've been sober for a week so far. I'm pretty ashamed for the way i was acting during my two month binge cuz idk...it's like i made myself depressed over things that don't seem to have that much of an effect on me. for ( Read more... )

aaaaahahahaha i'm drunk as fuck ummmmmmmm somebody take advantage of me or something

geh...i'm tired. i've been drinking a little bit too much lately and i know i shouldn't but i can't help it. been thinking alot about jeff too and trying to figure out what to do with him. i sent him a few text messages the other night when i was extremely wasted and idk what i said completely but i haven't talked to him since. sometimes it ( Read more... )

yes i finally got paid and i get to go shopping. yesterday at work, my boss had me paint some mural on one of the art gallery walls for the art sale we're having this upcoming week. i was so excited it wasn't even funny because i have never been asked to do something like that...especially for something so important too. i have to go in and ( Read more... )

i talked to jeff last night(the best friend i'm in love with) and he apologized for how he has hurt me and all of that stuff. i thought having him apologize for making me go through this was just a lame thought i had in my head and i never mentioned it to anyone and then all of a sudden, he apologized. somehow that fixes alot of what was wrong ( Read more... )

I know that i have to pull myself together but sometimes it's easy and other times it's damn near impossible. Being hung up on someone is horrible. maybe in another dimension or something we would have been perfect for eachother but not in this one. I guess that I'm supposed to happily go along with everything when he tells me about how great ( Read more... )

oooooh boy...the "ex"/joey has gotten in touch with me and i'm in a state of confusion. he is my first guy "ex" and the first ex i've ever dealt with after ending a relationship. I'm not sure how much of a good idea it'll be to have him around again but at the same time...i'm very excited. i think that's due to a lack of physical contact since ( Read more... )

i have merely begun my search for a "someone" and I'm already tired of looking. I appear to be much to shy to talk to anyone on campus and a few of the poeple i've met online recently are just weirdos ( Read more... )

meh...being gay sux

meh there is this extremely immature kid from texas that is boarderline obsessed with wanting to be my friend. I tried talking with him on the phone and online and his personality just rubs me the wrong way completely. we got in a little tiff about how stupid i think preps are and how all they care about is what they look like and put other ( Read more... )