if you really think you love me, i suggest you read this first.

[flamghettosis]

i yelled at gerald today. I'm truly sorry hun. i did not mean for it to extend as far as it did, and i think we should talk about this if you're ready...rationally. I have some explanations to rattle off

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[redbubbles]

"if anyone would like to consider themselves as being a true friend of mine, i simply ask them to love me as a whole. "
( i do this all the time... i try sooo hard and usually do put up w/ all your little flaws and when i'm in a good state of mind... i love your flaws and they make me laugh and love you even more...)
"in other words, do not yell at me or do things that would most likely cause me to feel stupid for those undesirable attributes i carry with me."
( i also blow up at you at times and i'm sorry.... but i'm human.. everyone's human and u have to realize that you will get bitched at along w/ every other human on the planet...)

i love you so much that it cancels out how much u don't luv urself... i wish you could have those "deep" conversations w/ me like i see you doing w/ other ppl... we havn't had a real deep conversation about this in a really long time, which makes me feel like i'm a little out of touch in your life... which is in no part your falt... if its anyone's fault, its mine...
i love you to the moon and back

[flamghettosis]

i never claimed i was immune to bitching or that i knew of anyone who is not human. i wrote this because i felt like certain shit was happening to me on a regular basis and i was sick of it. i agree with you about not having deep converations, i think i just feel like we disagree about more things now, and i dont like argueing with you because neither of us like to compromise. but i think its something else too, something very hidden, but i faith in us finding it. i plan on being patient waiting for it to surface. adn i love you too. very very very very much.

~dixie~

[jarredlightning]

Hey honey... i feel really uncomfortable about saying what i think in a comment but you told me to read your entry and i hope you read this and take my opinion for what's it's worth. the thing is, you're also a lot of wonderful things and i hate it when you bash on yourself. we all self hate, but i don't want you to think that if i bitch at you ever it's your fault. sometimes i think you're too hard on yourself and take what others do upon yourself, letting your anger towards and unhappy sistuation turn into anger against yourself... like it's easier to hate yourself than feel anger about someone else. i know i said it wrong and that was in no way meant to be against casey... but it's not about your faults, it's about the person who gets angery. i don't know, it's just that i often take blame upon myself and hate myself later and it seems like you do that too...i hope i didn't make things worse, that wasn't meant to hurt. i hope you do see all the wonderful, wonder-full, things about you too. i love you. don't know if that helped...

[flamghettosis]

thanks hun.