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"Flash, why did you go off ALL your psychiatry meds?"
I've discussed this at length with two therapists! There is a good reason I am intentionally not taking any psychiatric mediation. Science-based!
Both therapists asked a similar question: "Doesn't that make you feel numb?" Both were surprised to find out I was on 7 pills a day. At this point, I ( Read more... ) -
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At its base, my theory of education is constructivism. Every student walks into my class knowing something already. Most of the time, they already know enough to pass the class. My purpose at the front of the room is to help them turn that knowledge into a tool, something to conquer classrooms and boardrooms in the future.
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Florida has a "Right to Privacy" act which means gay people can't be outed as gay. They have to say it themselves. Anyone who says it beforehand can be sued. It's a law that is good for business, but it also means the State can't verify what is in your pants.
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Happy Birthday, don't call
My phone number is gone, don't call. Don't text. Not joking. Leave me be today.
Dead serious.
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Anyone I show up with, I feel like they'll take initiative to help. They'll call her, or the kids. Later, they could come to me, "Don't worry about divorce/money/etc." Because you talked to Amanda? That just means I'm waiting for her to find ( Read more... ) -
Don't get involved.
Anyone I show up with, I feel like they'll take initiative to help. They'll call her, or the kids. And I do not want any Amanda, at all, anywhere. So calling to tell me, "Don't worry about divorce/money/etc." because you talked to Amanda? That just means I'm waiting for her tO find me again. She knows you're involved, and she could use that to ( Read more... ) -
Apologizing, it is a necessary first step
From FB
Apologizing is an essential part of a connected relationship and sometimes a simple “I’m sorry” is enough.
But it can be useful to understand that the words and momentary experience of “apologizing” is usually just one part of a bigger process…a repair, especially when whatever created the rupture had a significant emotional impact.
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Why being homeless sucks - and it's not bench sleeping
Therapy has come to why I actually don't want to be homeless: mostly because police officers don't let me sleep, they often make me get up and move unless I hide from them.
It's most common in a car, that's where I would nap/sleep most often. After a couple days, TOPS, someone will knock on my window. Hours living in the car, but never more than ( Read more... ) -
Day 5
There's something more important than commemorating completion of Year 39. Where am I going to be at the start of Year 40?
That's the question forever in my head. Will I be in the city? In the state? In the country?
My Global Entry card doesn't expire until tomorrow; I could, concievably, fly somewhere international today as long as I land by ( Read more... ) -
Scared
Very sad today. Very sad. Very scared, very sad.
It started well! I even tested out Uber again for the first time in months.
But now I just...
Nowhere feels safe. Everywhere feels like they don't want me, or they don't trust me, or they don't want me as I am, but only want me if I behave...
And I barely want to be me, I'm always scared!