I made it here. I'm doing ok. I was admitted friday morning, but I am basically on observation 24 hours a day because of my heart. I get wheeled out to smoke. How fabulous. I'm doing ok, just exausted...and still in shock ( Read more... )

All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go ( Read more... )

I don't know if I will be around much before I leave...I've been in and out of the hospital the last few days, and I feel like all the life has been sucked out of me. Anyway, here is my contact info at UCLA ( Read more... )

I'm flying out the 27th, and being admitted the mornign of the 28th. That is the final set date...I'll put my contact info up later, but unit said I will be able to bring my cell and my computer since I'm set to stay for quite a while, and considering I'm out of state. I sick as shit right now. My K has been <2 the last few days, and all I can do ( Read more... )

Perhaps I should start packing, or get my plane tickets considering I'm supposed to be admitted friday. But no, I'm too busy having anxiety attacks every other minuet. I've gotten as far as calling UCLA to leave a message asking if they could bump my admission date up to next week. They still haven't called since friday, and the last thing I was ( Read more... )

I still don't feel ready. I still am in utter shock. Perhaps even more so now since Wednesday than I was months ago when I first heard knews. I'm busy trying to forget. I'm busy trying to pretend like things will be okay. I want believe that the sympathy card sitting on my desk, that I haven't been able to send for months because it just isn't ( Read more... )

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Insomnia is killing me right now, and my brain wont shut off...but I'm here. I'm more here than ever. My body is really falling apart this week, and not in any way that I have experience in years. I'm no longer in pain like I was weeks ago...but I know my body must be. I catch glimpses of my reflection, and I watch myself dragging behind. My head ( Read more... )

Ok, UCLA update for those asking ( Read more... )

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