I've been having a hard time the past few days. I'm really mad at some of the people at my church. I can't believe I ever thought that I belonged there. But I'm actually a little more upset with myself. I always stand up for what I believe in, and for what's right. I wanted so badly to get up and walk out of church, but I didn't because I was ( Read more... )

I'm so tired of being alone. Seriously. I have been so emotional the past few days. I watched Tuck Everlasting and The Object of My Affection and I was bawling through both. I mean full out weeping. I cried for like 5 minutes after each movie. Damn love stories. It's funny, I can't stop thinking about him. I know I shouldn't like him, he's not ( Read more... )

What do you do when you have feelings for a friend of yours but you are pretty sure that he doesn't have the same feelings for you?

I met someone. I am not going to say names but he is absolutely wonderful and I really love spending time with him. Right now I just feel really truly happy. For the first time in a long time I feel like I have friends. Real true friends that will always be there. I know that I have other real friends but I'm not friends with their friends so we ( Read more... )

Sometimes I look in the mirror and I don't recognize the person staring back at me. I want so badly to change. I keep trying to apologize to Kirsten, as if that can somehow make up for what I've done. But no matter how sorry I am, no matter how much I wish I wasn't so horrible, it can't make something that happened un-happen. Time only moves ( Read more... )

Kirsten is going to break up with me. I know it, I can feel it. I am so scared. I just don't understand why. I thought we were doing okay. I guess I was wrong. What did I do? God help me to understand. I just don't understand. And I have 5 fucking stitches in my lip too. AAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Enough

Tell me there is something more than this

coming

You ask me why I tend to run

Well maybe I don't get enough

from you

from you

When you tell me you love me

It's not something I believe

Cause you're moody and you tell me

That you're never good enough

You're always complaining

I love you but I hate it

And you don't think that you'll make it
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In dreams he dies a bloody death ( Read more... )

I don't think anyone reads this anymore but oh well. I made Charlie and the Chocolate Factory!!! I'm an Oompa Loompa!

I am so weak!!! I literally ran after Caleb today and apologized for ignoring him. When really I shouldn't have apologized, I should have told him the many reasons why I couldn't/wouldn't talk to him. But noooo I apologized. Rarg!!! And then I didn't make the play! I'm so angry!! i really wanted it. But Greg hugged me and that made me feel a ( Read more... )