So you are in FLA...jerk. jk.

and i miss you. damnit.

but while you were away someone told me something. something very interesting. Andy says you tried makin out with Kate.

If that's true. We are over.
I will find out. And if you have lied to me. I will do something to you that will hurt you as bad as you hurt me.

Everyday i find a reason that you should be with her instead of me.
Everyday there is a reason that i don't feel worthy.
and you telling me that you will not stop talking to her is making me feel like shit.
and there are more people in this world who would be more than happy to get a chance to have my company.

i ask for one simple thing. i ask that you stop talking to her when it is unnecessary. that is all. i got over the fact that you had to see her twice a week. i got over it. i got over seeing you walk with her from class. but for the love of god. you lied to me. you said she cheated on you and now you are saying that she didn't. which is it. you ( Read more... )

i want t-shirts to hang off of me.
i want to be that thin.
i don't want to look fat.
i don't want Aaron to fall out of love with me.
i want to feel desired...wanted.
i want to wear a size small.
i dont want to eat anymore.
i don't want food.
i'm going to eat as little as possible.
i'm going to be a size small.

i hate being told i'm beautiful. i hate being told that guys like me. because it always happens when Aaron and I are rocky. and it makes me think. it makes me wonder. i don't know what to do. i don't know if i made the right decision taking him back. i don't know if he is in it for pure intentions. i don't know. i wish a magic 8 ball really

i feel like i'm the only one who knows. well actually i am the only one that knows.

i can't tell him. it'll stress him out. i can tell anyone else. they won't care. i'm kind of stuck as you would say.

i feel like he is blaming me for things that aren't my fault. i feel like i can't be open with him anymore. that he just doesn't care and because he is stressed out i'm supposed to bottle up all my feelings. i am not allowed to be stressed out around him. i'm not allowed to tell him if i need help. i'm sorry but since when does my class schedual ( Read more... )

I'm going to do it. I'm going to lose all the weight. And I don't care how I'm going to do it. Fuck eating and fuck calories.

School is going to rape me in the ass. Yippy!

I don't know what else to say.

i'm bored. i'm so bored that i don't know what to do. We are in a rut. And he is pissing me off hard core. he won't fix anything that i get upset at and its like like being in a rut...ahhhh.

i don't know what to do. I don't know how i am supposed to handle this. i don't know why i can't just cope with things normal. I don't know. I feel sorry for those around me who are hurting. not due to me just because sometimes life sucks hard core ( Read more... )