while i wait for my episode to load ( Read more... )

it feels so strange to be in my room. but so necessary. this could have either been my worst semester academically but best emotionally or just all around worst semester thus far. i haven't decided yet. i need a break from people right now. i cant wait to sleep for hours and hours without a care in the world ( Read more... )

things have been good. my family is going to be on campus in less than an hour and i cant wait for them to see my life here. i really do love minnesota. and i love this school. i met a boy. we walked around the cross country lands last night. and the earth just smelled so amazing, and the changing trees and butterflies in my throat made me feel ( Read more... )

It's crazy how much can change in just three weeks. I don't know if I can ever look at anyone the same. I'm not lonely anymore, now I'm grateful.

I'm not happy. I thought going to school would lift my spirits, but instead I feel more depressed than I did at home. I'm nervous about my majors, what if I'm letting other opportunities pass me by? I feel shitty about my living situation. And I just feel like I can't talk to anyone about anything. Maybe I'm self conscious. Maybe I just don't know ( Read more... )

danielle leaves tomorrow (or today rather ( Read more... )

generally upset. i'm sick of being independent and destructive. i just want someone to hold me in bed for one whole day and make me not drink and make me strong. but i don't have anyone like that in my life ( Read more... )

consumed by alcohol

Alright. So I called St. Olaf today to figure out this mailing situation (since I live so far away and I'm flying to school, I have to send a lot of things by package there, and I need to make sure they know that and don't forward it back to me) and hearing the Minnesota accents made me so happy. I was so scared to come home and face people whom I ( Read more... )

i will miss teaneck