My depression is overwhelming me.
I cant function, I just feel incredibly sick with desire to die, to disappear, to remove myself entirely from the mess I have created.
I went to my familys yesturday, I swear Im looked at like Im just mentally unstable. that anorexia makes me a complete and utter lunatic with a completely worthless and selfish ( Read more... )

Lost a kilo in a few days, now 42kg ( Read more... )

I find being home so triggering. im very easily triggered, and a major trigger is my mum ( Read more... )

If someone asked me they could magic away anorexia in a second for me, why would I pause? why would I need to think about it, linger between answers, debate the two endlessly ( Read more... )

im so angry.
i was making my hot soya milk and my mum was faffing around me then turned around and was all ' whats wrong with YOU'?.
erm. quite a few things actually.
Instead of going into hospital I came home to get support, yes you have given me money to buy food but have you given me support?no.
I asked her for a few simple things, I said please can ( Read more... )

I HATE YOU ANOREXIA.

please leave me alone, even for 5 minutes, just so I can breathe again.

woke up, thought id do my strategic hrm essay today, but i cannnnt concentrrrate! god all i can think about is food. body check. google: calories in toothpaste. body check. food. google ( Read more... )

dating an anorexic is just a recipe for disaster. guys date me but they enter a relationship where theres technically 3 of us, in which they hate and love me at the same time ( Read more... )

hey, thought id re-introduce myself as i havent been around for a few months and theres some new faces about ( Read more... )

tomorrow im discharging myself from hospital.
then this time im actually not giving up, im going to fast and fast till i disappear.
cant believe my bmi... 17.1
it makes me feel hideously sick.
i want bones back, i want emptyness. i want my sanctuary back.
i feel like this isnt my body, its just unthinkable. i should never have gone into hospital.