it's the new week already. it's even the middle. i am finally seeing what it is like to be a college graduate, however i know i will not get the true feeling until the final portion is completed ( Read more... )

well in about 12 hours i will be walking onto a feild where i will sit for 4 hours and finally get that diploma i always wanted. a college graduate. if only all those people who never believed in me could see me now ( Read more... )

boy can you eat alot...and it kinda shows. not total eew, but maybe alittle.

i wanted to write you a letter. i wanted to tell you how much a part of my life you were. i want to tell you all the things i love about you and how you always made me laugh. the memories i have with you. the desert house, the cabin, your home, mine, hawaii, i love you grandpa ( Read more... )

time of death: 11:40pm, May 7th, 2005.

it's moments like this that i think. i think too much and i think too hard. i'm in my element and i conjure up all these thoughts about what it would have been like and where it would have gone. i think about the first time i knew and what i was thinking as i read the words aloud. i still look back at that moment and wonder if i made the right ( Read more... )

give me a good monday. keep the streak. let's go, it's almost time.

Sometimes people come into your life and you ( Read more... )

the closer my graduation gets the more i already feel like i am on vacation. i parked my books a few miles back and i'm sliding on the EZ ride. crazy bullshit, i'm in a mode. a mode of destruction. no time to waste, but so much time to relax. i almost don't recognize myself...but then i realize i'm only just now figuring out who i really am.

i had a really serious thought about quitting smoking about an hour ago. i was set on it. i felt the chest collapsing and i was through. then i had another one about half hour ago and i think i am getting ready to go outside again real soon...what the fuck is wrong with me?