What is this? I wish that someone would tell me. Because I have no fucking clue. It's so hard. Why do I have to love the impossible ones? Looking him in the eye and admitting to my self that we'll never work is the hardest thing in the world for me to do. And he doesn't understand just what he means to me. I don't fucking get it, I just don't. We ( Read more... )

i said that i wouldn't hurt about this. i said that i wouldn't be so sad. i said that i wasn't goiong to let another guy get me liket his. but i just can't help it. i'd so any thing to make him see just how much he means to me. and me. i'm the one that fucked this whole thing. he wasn't going to break up with me. he said all these things that he ( Read more... )

theres this thing about being bipolar. and it kills me so much more then the sickness it's self. I hurt the people around me. and then in the end, i'm hurt too ( Read more... )

so bryan fineally asked me out, and i said yes. and i don't know why. i like him i guess but i like tyler more. that was about a week ago ( Read more... )

theres no time for recalling all that you've missed in the past months.

I don't know whats wrong with me, because last month this time, i was floating on cloud fucking nine, nothing could possibly have torn me down, now eventhem. And now, i don't know what i'd do if things got any worse. i like tyler so much. and sometimes he acts like he likes me ( Read more... )

For Maggie: Although, you'll never read this, I just have to tell you... There's no possible way for you to know how i was feeling. I was so lonely. I was so unhappy. With you and Chase and with everyone else. And when you didn't stop to notice, I was hurt, when I tried to tell you, you didn't care. I needed you the most right then. I needed you ( Read more... )

I need to rethink myself. I need to rethink my past,present future, and do it fast. Because i don't know how much longer I can stand being this way.

Everythings falling apart. Charity's falling apart. Me and Maggie are falling apart. My school work is falling apart. Boner's done and fell off the mantel, and shattered on the beautifuly polished, golden brown hard wood floor. And me, I think that I myself and falling off too... just in super slow motion. And eventually I'll shatter too. I won't ( Read more... )

Interview: Big Apple Bagels 10:00 a.m. tomorrow morning ( Read more... )

Wouldn't it be nice if we were older ( Read more... )