Comments | flttrby1986: And while I'm high, they seem so low.

flttrby1986

And while I'm high, they seem so low.

Sep 30, 2003 18:37

-Things have been crazy lately. I'm confused. I feel broken but at the same time I'm the happiest I've been in a while. Does that make sense? The simplest things seem so unbearable, yet they're getting down without a problem. It's like my mind is making life harder than it actually is, but reality is making it easier. Which, by the way, is the ( Read more... )

Comments 5

don't worry about me ash7386 September 30 2003, 17:37:23 UTC

it is a short notice. I have a lot of things to figure out before this month is up. I really need to figure out why things are the way they are. I dont know if changing the way things are now will help, but i feel like i dont know what im going to do when i'm stuck on my own. I've always had someone there for me, but it's not like that now. I dont know- no matter what i wont have a miserable time, but still i dont know how things are going to work out.

Re: don't worry about me flttrby1986 October 1 2003, 13:20:06 UTC

i know you don't really consider me a "friend" anymore but if you ever need anyone to talk to, just to bitch to, I'm here. Even if you don't care about me anymore-- I still exsit.

Re: don't worry about me ash7386 October 1 2003, 17:29:48 UTC

I do consider you a friend. There's nothing that could make you not a friend, you've been there for me through too much. Things have just changed a lot, thats all.

I do care about you. I just really thought about everything and from that entry you wrote, what i got is that i used you when i had no one else and i was really hurt that you would even imply that.

I know you still exist, and most of the time im just hurting too much to talk to you. I feel like i royaly screwed up everything and i know i did. things are completely opposite like i never knew you or something, but i know i know you. You're still the same nikki i am best friends with, but you've grown up a lot more and you've made different choices than me. and i have to accept that. I dont know if i do right now, but i'm trying to accept it, so i do at least get credit for that, right?

complicated86 October 1 2003, 07:14:50 UTC

its short notice but its gonna be really really fun! Im gonna meet new people and hopefully Mike will be there. Remember the dude from d.c.? maybe i could look him up in the arlington phone book. ohoh maybe ill do that right now. Honestly, I think its gonna be like texas and if it is we wont even know what way is up cuz we will be sooooo busy.I cant wait to meet people like me cuz i def. dont fit in at this school and really i never did. maybe ill meet people from north carolina so they could tell me whether or not to move there. ok this is really long so even though i have more too say i dont want anyone to come up behind me and read it.

flttrby1986 October 1 2003, 14:41:01 UTC

D.C.'s gonna be so much fun. Meeting all the new people is totally gonna be the highlight.