Barb most likely has ovarian cancer, and if it's as bad as they're thinking before her surgery tomorrow confirms it, she is in for a lot of suffering and flirting with death. And I can't let her know. And everyone around her is terrified ( Read more... )

So AJ's been sick since about weds/Thursday, and with literally no money, I started a crowdfunder at GoFundMe, hoping everyone would throw in five bucks. I did not expect things to go as they did. As some people saw it, they threw in freaking 20 to 50 bucks, after the first vet visit - more than making up for the shnorrers. So sweet of them. Lauren ( Read more... )

I saw a meme on Facebook: "some people aren't loyal to you. They are loyal to their need of you. Once their needs change, so does their loyalty." Of course it had a picture of someone riding a horse underneath ( Read more... )

Hannah didn't have a good rebuttal for my telling her about how I couldn't reconcile our differences ("I worked hard"... "Had my low points"... Boy I'd like to be at rock bottom in HER universe). Then I saw this allusion to Tori's Improv song from her American Doll Posse tour in Upper Darby randomly somewhere, and when I looked it up, I remembered ( Read more... )

Hannah reached out to me yesterday and again today with a strange, almost apology or something- I shot her down as tactfully as I could. She was quick to take a "where is this coming from" as an opportunity to ram in she would never get back with me but friends are good to have (not I'm worth having as a friend, mind you. Just that she likes her ( Read more... )

When I was younger, I would have thought today would be a blessed day, being 7/17 and all. It's been nothing but a depressed day. I don't even think 5/17 was much this year.
Maybe I'm losing the magic. Or maybe I'm just not blessed anymore.

Hm. JoJo is still my avatar. Back when she was cute and we lived in Upper Darby and she didn't hate me ( Read more... )

I think it's time that I come to terms with where I am, even if it means that I have to have it in writing as I dictate it out loud where I have to hear it from my own mouth ( Read more... )

Keep it cool. Hung out w Noel again yesterday and feelings keep clawing up... Stop, just stop. Or let good things happen, Angels.

Hung out w Noel tonight in the city. Could have gone back w her, but I'm almost out of gas. And the sometimes awkward silences... Her talking about a potential hookup and realizing it is uncomfortable to hear... I seriously, seriously am at a place where I need to let go. Her hair wasn't quite as intoxicating as I remembered it. It was somewhat ( Read more... )