all i know
is that i feel incredibly disconnected
from almost everyone
and by almost everyone
i mean everyone except maybe two people.

so fucking sick and tired of you.

everyone's leaving,
or left.

i can't comprehend how alone i really am.

dear lord,
i am begging you:

do something.

i've been drinking a lot recently ( Read more... )

oh, i never realized how much one phone call could take such weight from my heart.

oh god
i can't say goodbye to you again

i am so much more than hurt right now.

i can't handle this.
i won't.

i think you may have said some
not so nice
things about me.
and after everything
that happened
that is really fucking shitty.

i deleted your number from my phone
but that doesn't mean i don't remember it