ok today was really fun. the best was last and thats that cassie got hit by a car lmao just joshing im really sorry but you gotta admit when we look back itll be effing hilarious like a bat incident i remember ::clears throat:: ok well anyways this morning i was dropped off at the twins and hung there for an hour and then their brother took us to ( Read more... )

im so hyper. i had 2 cups of coffee this morning cookies and caffenine vitamin thingy. ive been bouncing off the walls all day. i got biology and spanish outta the way...im so happy. ITS OVER! i never have to go back to those classes again. i wore this bright turquoise top today that i love because it makes my eyes look REALLY REALLY blue and then ( Read more... )

i deleted that last entry cause it was like WOW. i cant believe i felt that way. i dont even remember writing it. i cried a total of 6 hours from saturday nite til sunday morning. and then i just let it go. im sick of crying so much over things i just cant change. everything is the way it is for a reason and i was given these obstacles to overcome ( Read more... )

well yesterday was my birthday. a day that revolves around me, celebrates me, and is just all around ME ME ME! which is definetly what i needed. it was the first day i can officially say (since its over with) i didnt cry. it was awesome. in the morning i get off the bus and rochelle has a card and balloon for me. then cassie is like rachel i wanna ( Read more... )

tommorws my birthday but i dont even care anymore...ugh i just cried so much today. but me and char are finally talking which was really good. i sat there and cried to her and she just listened and was patient and helped me. she made me feel so much better but yeah. at school i was "myself" tho...its just when i get home OMG! all i do is think. and ( Read more... )

yeah i havent written in three days cause i either havent felt like it or was way too busy. this week actually hasnt been that bad and today i havent even cried yet! (im jinxing myself right now prob but o well) well heres a quick summary of the FUN stuff. no sad, depressing, crying shit will even be brought up cause i just dont have the energy ( Read more... )

yeah happy birthday josh! i hope its the best it can possibly be. well yesterday was quite a busy day and it was gay. the carwash was gay i mean duh. but me and rochelle didnt have to wash cars which was cool i guess. we were poster holders on the corner of 441 and we had like 100 cars honk at us at least. and then i had my football game. we lost ( Read more... )

i wish life was like my dreams:everything goes the way i want it too and its so peaceful and just blissfull. but who am i kidding? thatll never happen. i dont want everything to be perfect tho. no i hate perfection. its too fake and all i want is something real. i cleaned my house this morning like a mad woman just to keep busy. and then i tanned ( Read more... )

yeah today is my moms birthday WOO HOO! may is such a busy month! i mean mothers day, my moms birthday, the twins birthday, MY BIRTHDAY, and jds birthday. i love birthdays...they are so exciting. i dont know why though. but yeah this week has been so dull, gay, boring, and stupid. ive come home every day to but lie in my bed and sleep. then i go to ( Read more... )

yeah so last nite i made a promise to myself that i wouldnt cry this whole week. that was shot to hell this morning. i couldnt not cry. wtf is wrong with me? i was trying to hold it in so badly! i was shaking like i was gonna have a fucking seisure. it was so scary. and so i just layed myself down in candaces lap and cried like ive never cried ( Read more... )