( i changed my mind. )

someday this week i'm guna post an entry filled with song lyrics that (i feel) relate to my life.
just wanted to let you know..

wow, what a weekend.
well, actually, what a night.
i love meeting new people &seeing my favorite drunk in action :P
too bad we didn't take pictures/record that whole night ahhaha
i want a boy.
i must have said it 2983492394839 times over the whole weekend.. but its true.
someone needs to realize i'm here like.. soon.
the most listened to song on my iPod ( Read more... )

you know what sucks more than anything in the world?
jealousy.
its kind of owning me in the face every waking minute of my life.

i was watching MADE &this girl said something that was a confession for her
&was 100% true for me too.
"i'm terrified of failing at life."

according to the radio, today was supposed to be the most depressing day of the year.
figures that on the so called "most depressing" day, i'm emotionless.
i'm not happy, or sad, or angry, or anything. im just.. here.
happy depressing day.
what kind of day was yours?

yesterday owned.
being gangsters scratching itches at the beach
&then partying it up down town.. it was intense.
even if sara annihilated her vag, i accidently slit part of my wrist,
we had fun beaner packing a slide &rumbling! lmao
spending time out of my house, with my best friends is the fucking best.

sometimes, its hard to look at the bright side..
when everything around you is so dark.
my life is becoming more dramatic every day.
i just want it to stop..

i keep thinking about certain things.
things that make me wish it were summer.
things that make my body literally ache.
things that keep me up at night.
i hate creating these scenarios (spell?) in my head that i know just arent going to happen.
i just make things harder on myself than i should/need to/deserve.
but on the bright side, we're about to have ( Read more... )

friday the 13th- we lost our table at lunch.
like, literally.. it wasn't there.
yesterday- orlando with my favorite people ever!! (minus dave)
so basically, it was amazing. i had a great time :) :) :)
mcdonalds for breakfast, cinnamin buns for lunch, &mcdonalds again for dinner hahah.
&we owned islands of adventure &universal ALL day.
lets do that again. ( Read more... )