Just changed the colors on my journal, I am looking for something a little brighter and nicer rather than dark and down.... I fell okay right now, I am getting pretty tired, I think Ill hit the sack soon. I miss Cindy, I havent talked to her recently, I hope shes having a good time =^) Ummm.... Nothing really happening right at the moment just ( Read more... )

Today was So great! I woke up and got ready and went to wills I got there around 1230 or so and hung out until about 830. I came down stairs and mom was throwing up, I spent all night last night trying to keep her fuckin sober and then larry comes over and gives her wine and she get trashed and all the medication shes on I told her it would make ( Read more... )

She doesnt care about me, she doesnt love me.... I worked so hard trying to help her and she fucks me over like this, she is WEAK....

Today was rather interesting.... Well, Mr. Drumhellar wasnt there and the sub showed up, Mr. Neal, the one that ends every class with "Stay out of the streets and dont do drugs and abstinence is the key".... Okee dokee.... So stop staring at my tits already! Then another teacher came in and she was like "im looking for MR.Drumhellars classroom" she ( Read more... )

Advanced Big 30 Personality Test Results
Sociability |||||||||||||||||| 58% Aggressiveness |||||||||||||||||| 54% Assertiveness |||||||||||||||||| 54% Activity Level ||||||||| 26% Excitement-Seeking ||||||||||||||||||||| 62% Enthusiasm ||||||||||||||| 50% Extroversion ||||||||||||||| 50% Trust |||||||||||||||||| 54% Morality ( Read more... )

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. What is one good thing I have done for you? One bad?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest and worst memory of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. What do you think of me physically, what do I need to improve on?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. ( Read more... )

Cindy is upstairs taking a nap nap, and I am updating..... She was at Wills last night and I called her to ask what time shell be here today and she told me she didnt know so I was like ok.... Well.... She called back and knew something was wrong and wanted to talk to me, then I talkled to Kaci and then I got on the net. Cindy got two tats last ( Read more... )

Trapped in this glass dome looking out at all of my misery,
So much unbearable pain, nothing I can do to make it go away,
Not enough pills to fill my throat, enough love to fill my heart,
My fragile world that is cracked once again, nothing to seal it with,
All of its clarity flowing out, all of the beauty settling at the bottom,
The pollution seeps in ( Read more... )

Feeling so empty.... So left behind... Alone... Broken... I NEED bloodshed.... I deserve it.... I need something....