I'm moving back to my old journal so everyone please friend me there. The address is: www.livejournal.com/users/starxrise

Ow... my head hurts. Lol, thats a good way to start an entry. I'm stuck at home, spent most my day watching animal planet and talking to michelle on the phone. I gotta get out of here. I'll go downtown tomorrow. Hang out with Danny or something, as long as I'm out of this house! My cousin left last night but not before giving me a nice little round ( Read more... )

Living in my own little world.You know what I find funny? I find it funny when someone rags on me and then turns around and wants something from me. I find it funny as do that fact that cattiness is often associated with ignorance and insanity because its always so hard to believe there might be an alternitive motive. But everyone gets what they ( Read more... )

Happy thankgiving everyone. Exspecially James because hes alone, but he knows I love him so its all good. Last night was...Meh. I went to my doctors and found out that (YAY!) the cancer cells have cleared up and were all removed so that means, though I'm not in the clear, I can relax for a least the rest of my youth. My daddy's home with means so ( Read more... )

My dad is in the hospital again and hes not doing well. I have all the best hopes but this reality is like a slap in the face when I least expect it. When I just convince myself there is any hope. I think there might be brain damage. He rambles and repeats phases over and over and over again. At times, this feels way to hard to bare. I have never ( Read more... )

Where I lay my head is like a tomb
No windows, just walls, in my big empty room
But curled in my blankets, the fear subsides
The very second I close my eyes
And the calm overcomes me as it tends to do
When I sleep, I dream and I dream of you

"I'm spinning, whoa... I'm spinning round watching the sun drop away....

I know someday you'll have a beautiful life, I know you'll be a star
In somebody elses sky but why can't it be mine?"

-Pearl Jam-

I feel ( Read more... )

Life is...life. I'm in the process of moving so my internet isn't up right now. My dad is doing better. No one talks about it, its like we're choosing to ignore its even happening which feels...wrong,to me. I'm getting really sick of people's empty promises and pretty words. Rachels the only one I hang out with anymore because my choices consest of ( Read more... )

Waiting for a phone call, knowing its more bad news. Its always bad news. How much bad news can a person take? What did this person do to deserve so much of it? I'm convinced the worst thing in the entire world is having to sit here, and wait for bad news.