whats happening to me??

Did I get my motivation removed when I got surgery????

I'm starting to feel better everyday and I really want to make my life better now. I want to enjoy myself. Every second of everyday is going to be worth my time. I've been sick for way too long, I wish I could rewind and get my summer back. I had so many plans, I wish I could have gone through with them. But I can't sit and wish about everything, I ( Read more... )

I go for surgery to get my gall bladder out Tuesday. I'm really nervous but at the same time I'm so glad that I finally have some answers. It's been so long. I can't wait to eat a big huge buffalo chicken cheesesteak ( Read more... )

Everytime Lisa writes an entry it makes me reflect on my own life ( Read more... )

I'm taking a course in Photography and I'm really excited about it. I need something to keep my mind off of everything going on in my life. Work is stressful as ever, I'm in constant pain, and I'm really frustrated with money issues.

I'm living my life day to day. I don't know where I'm going to be in 15 seconds, in 15 years. I have so many plans for myself and lately I don't see any of them happening. Everyday is up hill and I'm feeling sicker with every minute. It's so hard to get out of bed anymore, both physically and mentally ( Read more... )

I'm falling apart. Everyday gets worse and I don't understand why I can't just wake up and be better. They can't find anything and nothing is adding up according to my doctors ( Read more... )

I still don't know what's wrong.
Third blood test tomorrow and CT scan on Sunday. I'm terrified.

Everyone around me keeps dying. It scares me so so much.
I need to live my life now because I never know when it will be over. I don't want to sit on my ass and wish I would have done things.