I'm really afraid to find out what's wrong with me.
I got blood work last night and I get an ultrasound and an upper G.I. next Thursday.
He gave me medicine to hold me over until next week which seems to be working.

But I'm really scared, really really scared. It could be ANYTHING.
They think it's an ulcer, my thyroid or gastritis.

I'm so restless here it's unbelievable. I don't know what I want to do with my life. Every other day I'm changing my career and slowly adulthood is approaching me and I'm realizing I have to choose soon. Sometimes I want to be a sports photographer, but most of the time I'd love to get into Forensics Photography. I'd love to be out working on the ( Read more... )

I honestly don't know what to do about ANYTHING ( Read more... )

I am a hard person to please. And I hate it.....

The other day someone asked me why I was so insecure, and it got me thinking. I let everything get to me. When all the bad stuff happened with Rob, him not showing up at my birthday party, when he kicked the car door in, just to name a few; it brought me down ( Read more... )

"Why the fuck am I questioning his intentions? In reality I should be questioning my own."

I SUCK.

I've been over the bullshit for so long now and I just keep getting myself wrapped up.

Me and Ryan are taking a break.

These things never work do they????

Where are you now??

Who is this stranger you've turned into????????

I'm in dyer need of a HUGE change, and quick.

Slowly but surely you're pushing yourself away from me.