For the first time ever I'm financially stable. I am paying 110 dollars a week toward bills, and saving 60 dollars a week to get an apartment ( Read more... )

Lately I've missed Ryan a whole whole lot because of work and stuff. And my feelings haven't been good, I'm afraid. I hope I have no reason to be afraid, I hope that he's staying by my side, that we move out and start our life together soon. I hate to say that it's a man who's making my life complete, because I should be able to make my own life ( Read more... )

Really praying that Ivy's okay after this surgery. I've had my mind on so many things lately and I just can't seem to shake any of it.

I love my jobbbb :)
And I start sports photo this Saturday. 15 dollars an hourrrr
Working overtime at Prestige Saturday 1-4 for 16 dollarsssss
Love this.

I wouldn't mind having the littlest bit of anything right now.

I have a habit of throwing every good experience away.

My family is further from me than they have ever been and I hate it.

Ryan's holding me up so much right now it's unbelievable. It feels like he's all I have <3

Tristan's concert was cancelled last night because she's sick. That's like canceling Christmas for me. SANTA DOESN'T GET SICK :(

Life gets shitty....

I'm in a really bad mood.

The Phillies lost.
I got woken up early.
But you still didn't call.
I have to go shopping alone for work clothes.

But, on the bright side, I start my new job tomorrow 10 - 7 and I'm very excited.

It hasn't hit me yet that this is real. It took me a while when Ryan passed away to feel it as well. But it's my way of coping ( Read more... )

I'm realizing little by little how much I really hate drinking and driving. I'm more angry than anything.