it was all dilapidated architecture, smoldering remains, and you could almost see the projected images of other people's memories spattered across this landscape. then, there we were, trading drugs for money, just trying to stay alive. there is no accounting for such looming figures, camouflaged in shadows, snarling scowls, eye's so red your ( Read more... )

i think i'm sick. if i puke in the next couple hours i will be sure of it. something is inside my stomach getting incredible thrills out of tying it up in knots. maybe i'll get lucky and feel the urge to purge when i go get my paycheck so that i can hurl on my boss/bosses. probably not though, as online poker has made it loud and clear that ( Read more... )

why don't i write something that says. . .

. . .i love you.

sometimes i feel like you are better off without me to drag you down.

i am the burden of your existence, at least that's how it feels.

after a brief bout with lung, bone, lymph node, and liver cancer; my grandpa died today. we got the call right after we had purchansed plane tickets to go and see him in his last days. i've always felt the closest to my grandpa al, he could always make anyone laugh. every time there was a party, he was there, and tearin' it up on the dance floor ( Read more... )

this morning i added another scratch in the wall ( Read more... )

i had a dream last night that it was my twenty-first birthday. dave was there, janele was there, sara was there, and a few other people were there. basically what happened was that i was at the bar, snookers to be precise, celebrating. drinkin' beers, shootin' pool, you know. anyways, i saw some friends of mine sitting at the bar with their ( Read more... )

sometimes livejournal makes me feel like crap

so ( Read more... )

so i used to be vigorously opposed to voting. after the debacle in florida last year, i just felt that your vote doesn't really count; that if whoever is running for president knows the right people in the right places (i.e. bush's brother,jeb, being florida's governer) then, win or lose, they can still pull strings and wind up in office. not to ( Read more... )