when joseph decides to go out (independent of knowing whether or not i'm going out), i get offended because he'd rather go out and get drunk with other people than stay home with me (or hang out with me, if i'm in the bay). i don't tell him this because if i did say something about it, he would probably feel guilty and stay home. while this is ( Read more... )

my boyfriend just said to me, "your the fucking devil"

i am the second angel.

• carolina liar - coming to terms.mp3actually, the whole cd is good, most of which can't be found on youtube, but i like Last Night and When You Are Near ( Read more... )

michael was right when he said that i needed someone to be here for me. be here be here, in chicago be here, not a voice on the phone be there.

someone, where are you.

Happy birthday hun ( Read more... )

SIKE: I REALLY MISS JOSEPH ( Read more... )

the weekend i was home for thanksgiving last year, i spent sunday night with joseph in a hotel in walnut creek. we showered, made love, then he insisted on a quick nap and i obliged. i woke up before he did and tried to wake him up, watched tv, and tried to wake him up. but he is also one of the crankiest sleepers i have ever known and he kept ( Read more... )

i know tomorrow at around 215pm, i will painfully regret NOT going through the poems assigned to us for reading in class. unfortunately, i think i'm going to bed soon, after calling joseph until he wakes and or writing him an email ( Read more... )

most nights i have trouble sleeping. but the nights when joseph sleeps on the phone with me are the nights i fall asleep more effortlessly. i don't understand this phenomenon because he doesn't even breathe in to the phone; he just puts it on speaker next to his head on the pillow or on the bed. sometimes it falls on the floor ( Read more... )

i told my dad i was a history major and he told me he wishes he could've been a history major. he told me about this ten hour world war ii documentary he bought the other day, and i told him about the two hour world war ii documentary i pirated off the internet the other day. he seemed amused. then my mother told me that they're moving back to our ( Read more... )