i noticed today that whenever i use the toliet, i stare at the tiles in the floor and make out patterns. my old piedmont bathroom had tiny pentagons. or maybe it was 6-sided, but i don't remember. i would make flowers in my head, with bigger and bigger shapes. the bathroom in my dorm is irregular; i still haven't made out the pattern yet, how ( Read more... )

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in other news, gregg my smoking buddy from history class came through.
i traded him my carton of 9 packs of marlboro menthol lights for a carton of 9 packs of marlboro menthols.

i am so excited for the slow and steady destruction of my fucking lungs. who needs lungs anyways? only people who want to breathe.

in the library as i type. supposed to be writing an essay. wrote a paragraph and a half already. syz meeting. bitch to sally about jen. smoke cigarettes. buy $220 plane tickets. text joseph about making move and missing each other. procrastinate about my essay. wonder if i should rewrite my poem. hear sally typing in the booth next to ( Read more... )

• homework: history essay, cosmology quiz, rewrite poem, write sonnet, history reading, more history reading, korean essay.

• stop sleeping in and missing my 12pm korean class. this means going to bed earlier. this means finishing my shit earlier. this means being more productive and less procrastinate-ive. library mayhaps?
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i've got two finals tomorrow. korean at 10 and math at 12. i started studying for math at 10pm. played rockband from 12-145 and i've been downstairs in the lounge of my dorm last year until 315 taking notes on sections i should've taken notes on weeks ago. i texted joseph constantly, which prolonged the process ( Read more... )

i've been back in the bay area since tuesday night ( Read more... )

talked to joseph this morning, pressured him to speak to me about what was bothering him. he iterated that he felt distant from me, that i was the one giving distance, not him. that i wasn't giving him what he needed as a long distance girlfriend, and that he had responded to me in a way that he wanted me to give him more. i failed to give him ( Read more... )

i need a hobby. i need a time commitment when i'm at school. i GUESS i could rock climb but that is more self-defeating than it is not. i would have to spend countless hours each week just transporting myself to and from the climbing gym. considering the shadiness of our transportation system at night.. this is probably not wise unless i have a ( Read more... )