everyday away from joseph gets a little bit easier because i tell myself it's one day closer to seeing him next. i cope by sleeping throughout the day, waking up only when i have to. but by waking up i mean getting out of bed instead of rolling around, huddled under the covers; i've been having trouble sleeping. i'm done with work and things by ( Read more... )

the other day when i watched joseph walk towards the security checkpoint, i had no cigarettes on me. we finished two packs together in the four days (thursday - monday morning) that he was here, and then some lucky strikes we bummed off alex. nat sherman hint of mint and benson and hedges menthols. we finished the last two at midnight monday ( Read more... )

this boy joseph holds my heart at its strings. to be really really honest, after trying long distance i never thought i'd find the significance to risk my hope in hundreds of miles apart. and this shit is hard. i miss baby on a daily, hourly basis. every minute that passes is one that i haven't spent with my boy, by his side, holding his hand. ( Read more... )

we're currently at a little less than 30 hours before joseph arrives! ioajjeiraoje what the how can i be so fucking excited ( Read more... )

so this has been in my post-an-entry-revert-to-saved-draft for a few months. i want to get rid of it but it seems like it would've nice to actually post it.. it's just overdue. so!

( this is from the last week of august )

as of six hours ago, i have a new crush!!
meet william beckett!


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joseph and i resolved the aforementioned potential for disaster. that is, my insecurity with his kindness to girls. i think i just need this for now. he's told me he's never had a girl who took offense to his overt kindness and i don't perse, i just cringe a little when i think of girls fawning over him. i think this is only aggravated by my ( Read more... )

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so i am back in evanston for school. this is probably the worst thing that's happened to me since the last time i had to fly to evanston. that is probably an overstatement ( Read more... )

• last wednesday night, when i snuck joseph into my house, he had me close my eyes while he slipped vintage diamond earrings into my lobes ( Read more... )