• i went to tahoe this past weekend to see joseph's family. we originally planned to leave before dawn, but we also opted to nap and slept way more than we had intended. we stopped in vacaville afer getting donuts and milk in walnut creek, where joseph bought an argyle sweater and collared shirt from banana republic. i bought joseph a pair of ( Read more... )

i snuck joseph into my house last night. he picked me up and we watched step brothers, sharing popcorn and cherry coke and a blue raspberry slushy. i spent a lot of time feeding him cause i'd rather have his arm around me in the process. and the way that i was sitting, if he fed himself the popcorn, i wouldn't be able to see the screen. the ( Read more... )

I was supposed to see Joseph tonight, after writing myself in on TUESDAY, my fucking birthdy. For some reason, I had this aching feeling that I wouldn't actually see him and surprise surprise, I was right. For god knows what reason, I seem to gravitate towards these boys and people who continuously stand me up, blow me off, pick something else ( Read more... )

- tuesday after climbing, jeeae went grocery shopping with me while i bought cottage cheese, greek yogurt, vanilla soy milk and granola. i eat tons of shit every morning and then i leave for work, which is excellent because i never get hungry! i have so much more energy now that i've been eating relatively healthy shit, why haven't i been doing ( Read more... )

Maybe I am just being stubborn about Cameron. It's not his damn fault that he has open gym on Mondays and Wednesdays for it. He's right when he says he should get two days of basketball, if I get (at least) two of climbing. But in this situation, I'm the one who has the opportunity to change my schedule. It involves asking Jeeae if she wants to ( Read more... )

( for some reason )

i feel dumb.
and i don't know what to do about cameron.

often times i wonder how i fucked up so bad my freshman year ( Read more... )

kevin and i are officially broken up. on a break, not together, giving it time, something. he called it "setting me free" then later texted me to tell me that if i were to go "so low as to date cameron again," i should tell him so he "has the satisfaction of knowing he was right ( Read more... )

i'm in california ( Read more... )