i look back and im amazed at how i seem to be constantly over and underestimating the value of one thing or another in my life. sometimes it seems and feels as though i couldnt get it more wrong, when it comes to determining what is worth loving, hating, worrying about, putting effort into, and living for. right now is a confusing time, and it ( Read more... )

this refers to the idea that history tends to repeat itself.....i see many examples of this, i believe. it's easy to see sometimes, as it probably should be, in most cases. currently, there are aspects of my life that are being replayed, in at least some way or another - nothing i need to detail now, or ever probably, for that matter. realistically ( Read more... )

thinking of all the things i could leave here.....about any number of things. i just dont have the time to do it now. even if i did i dont think i have the passion either. but i figured i should leave something......and now i have. i'll try again soon - +++ Necro

still here - thats all for now - Necro

how the fuck does 2 weeks manage to pass between entries here - well, i know the answer to that question as well as anyone else could, im sure. i cant believe the places ive been, things ive seen, people ive met.....well, one person in particular, i guess. life is so very different now from what it was just 1 short month ago. ive often heard these ( Read more... )

3 days.....it feels like a lot longer than that. in many ways, everything has drastically fallen off in that time. im not really surprised.....3 days off means that there is probably a lot to talk about here. there in fact is, though i dont feel like im "with it" enough to really get into any of it here today. besides, its all about fears, bitter ( Read more... )

i cant say much here today, im afraid.....but i wanted to say something. i guess ive done that now. ive just really got so much on my mind, and if i let myself id be here for a while. not today though.....+++ necro

here i am again - its been a relatively slow 24 hours, though nothing's been slow about my thoughts. actually, while they're racing away, id say that i probably could be considered slow in the traditional sense of the word. i prefer to think of myself as being too fast, because im always tripping over the multitude of things taking place within my ( Read more... )

lol - i just cant figure out what to say here. this is the third time ive gotten this far through the first line, so i hope it truly is the charm. i have no idea about what to say here today. i cant believe how everything seems to be swirling around in my head....i guess that when things have been as interesting as they recently have been in my ( Read more... )

here i am once more - im afraid it will be a short entry today. what else is new, right? the simple fact of the matter is that ive been kind of busy, and kind of distracted. whats really funny about it is that i wouldnt really have it any other way. well.....i might cut out some of the distractions in favor of one in particular, but im not going to ( Read more... )