Ta day is startin out great....i woke up and was FINALLY in the 'teens' 
and only 4.8 to GW1 AND 9.8 to GW2 :P:P :D yeee im so excited. 
im only gonna do 300 cals a day...wont be too hard i think..this one website says i can lose 3lbs a week with that and exersize 5times a week (
i will be really busy with my 2 jobs and i wont even have that much time ( Read more... )

yay im finally 15 haha. 
shitty shitty shitty thing though...last night i went for dinner...this morning i woke up and had gained 1.4 lbs since the day before. damn.
and today after exams i went out with friends and had a bagel and a cinnamon bun..what the fuck is wrong with me? 
at least i work from 4-9 tonight...i will be able to skip dinner :) then ( Read more... )

okay..so this week is super weird..everything just feels so off. 
so many things are changing in my life right now.
-i recieved my information on my exchange student today...and she is coming in august.
-my birthday is tomorrow. and i have to go out for dinner because my dad is coming up to see me and take me out for my BDAY :) . i AM planning to skip ( Read more... )

Yay! im finally 121! 6 more til GW1 :) 
i CAN do this!

 today i am startting a 3 day...well more like 3 1/2 day fast until Friday afternoon/night- only becuase we are going on a family 'vacation' and im sure i will be forced to go out for dinner once we get there (michigan for a NASCAR race) so i will have to break my fast. but i hope i can shed a few pounds before then ... because i want to look ( Read more... )

 eugh. i feel so disgusting. my legs feel so huge. i went to the Tom Petty concert in Toronto on Tuesday and we stayed overnight. I ate soo much. its disgusting. i really wanted to be 118 by tomorrow but theres no way that is happening by tomorrow. i guess i'll just be a huge fat ass for my friends party tomorrow and for the rest of my life until i ( Read more... )

I am so proud of myself...i have been able to stick to 2468 so far...and have lost 3.2lbs? i actaully feel skinnier ahah. i am super excited and motivated now. my mom even told me i look smaller and that i look good. today i have had about 620 cals but im done for the day...maybe a tea before bed. im worried about friday though...starting another ( Read more... )

started 2468 today. i have done really well. only 196 cals for today. i had a rugby game and i cut the grass. i am thinking i will go for a bike ride after my mom and i get back from grocery shopping. i am really proud of myself today i have hardly eaten anything and i have been doing alot of exercise too. ughh. hopefully i can get rid of all that ( Read more... )

starting 2468 tomorrow. weekend was pretty much shit. and my mom is still bugging me about my freaking period. i do not want to get it because in my sick mind, i feel like a complete failure if i do. anyways im thinking just 2-3 cycles to get down a few pounds from this weekend. and i am so close to my GW1 i can taste it (haha). i need to feel ( Read more... )

i hate  myself. 
i am disgusting. 
i hate my fat.
i hate my weaknesses.
well, at least after last night i should be okay for the next week or so. i have no urge to eat at all. i just want to curl up and cry.
then i can wake up and be about 30 pounds lighter. :(