OK! Dana and Caitlin invited me to go to their swimteam district. This was really nice because i am leaving next weekend and i dont have much time left with Caitlin. Well Dana's fucking parents have to make shit difficult for me by saying i would have to find a way to their house, which is off in bumb fucked egypt, at fucking 6am! Well since it ( Read more... )

Well looks like summer's end is creeping up on me fast than i thought. I almosted freaked out when mom told me that they are comeing next weekend. It's hard to believe that in a little over a week i will not see Caitlin for a long time. It really sucks because i want to hold her and kiss her and look in her eyes but i wont be able to anymore. I ( Read more... )

Have you ever felt like an unwanted guest but no one says anything to you just to be nice? Lately I have felt that way. It might just be my paranoia but Patrick doesnt talk to me about natalie and it sucks because i thought he could come to me for anything but i supose not. I dont think he trusts me to keep quiet about it. I guess i cant blame ( Read more... )

Sorry for not updated regularly. I either dont think of it or dont have anything to put in here ( Read more... )

22 days........that's all i have left to spend with caitlin and patrick.......

sry i havent updated on this but i just havent thought of it ( Read more... )

Well caitlin is mad at me again. She got mad at me because my family is somewhat racist. They really arent that racist to be honest. they feel that there are black people and there are niggers. there are mexicans and there are wetbacks. there are white people and white trash. I dont dislike the people because of their color. i dislike people ( Read more... )

I'm sitting here talking to caitlin and she is saying that i will need to appologize to her parents before i would be allowed over again. I dont know i had planned on doing that anyway though. i am just waiting for the right time. I mean i dont want to bring that kind of thing up at church or anything because that is just not the time or place ( Read more... )

last night me and caitlin go into a small arguement i guess you could say about some stuff. For one it was about how she always runs and avoids problems instread of trying to solve them. She doesnt do it often but with this thing with me and her parents she just wants to avoid completely. and for 2 there is the issue with her and her fear of ( Read more... )

Well i just got back from the youth group beach retreat. I must say i felt closer to God in those 3 days than i ever have in my entire life. Caitlin was there and though i tried to talk to her about her parents finding out i grabed her boob she didnt want to talk about it and in fact at one point she even seemed to get mad at me for talking about ( Read more... )