love is watching someone die

[foxlives]

so this is all introspective and shit, and i've been living with it for the past three weeks and so all objectivity has been lost, it could suck balls for all i can tell.

also, decimals don't work like that. but whatever.

( originally posted over at sharp_teeth, for the prompt, Dean doesn't tell Sam about his deal.)
naught
sam and dean, 4000 words
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Comments

[gabby_silang]

DDD:

I absolutely love this idea, and this is a gutpunch execution of it.

[foxlives]

"gutpunch execution," exactly what i was going for. thanks much.

[august_monsoon]

I already left a comment in sharp_teeth, but I had to read it again. Seriously, had me in tears. Love, love, love your writing style.

[foxlives]

and that comment you left over at sharp_teeth quite literally ranks amoung the best comments i've ever gotten. so, thanks for that.

so glad you liked it, man. infinite thanks.

[sgmajorshipper]

Damn. This whole thing, all 4,000 words of it is just one huge punch in the gut, and then those last two times are like an added kick. I know others have mentioned the pacing, which is gorgeous, but for me what really does it is the way Dean is so Dean even as his world is ending, how he runs the gamut of emotions in the way he does, how he gets desperate and just...Dean.
Effin perfect.

[foxlives]

glad you liked it, especially the pacing and dean. because dude, it is freaking hard to get inside that man's head. so, thank you much.

[withalittlewit]

jesus fucking christ. this is really, really amazing. i can perfectly picture that, in an alternate universe, you've written the perfect version where dean tells sam he only has a year, and sam nearly kills himself trying to fix things; that's how characteristically accurate you've portrayed their personalities, and how canonically similar you've pin pointed their relationship. you very well could have (should have) written the end of season three. the flow is so fantastic, the pacing uneven but in no way unpleasant (much like the road they drive on), and the scenarios you've chosen are really, really beautiful. perfect examples of the type of brotherly relationship they have. a lot of people like to over dramatize their relationship, chock it full of the season 4 finale-type fighting and angst, but the majority of their life together are moments like these, which are simple, beautiful pieces of who they are. i just rewatched all hell breaks loose the other day, so to then follow up with this is so emotional. a lot of great lines in

[foxlives]

dude! awesome comment of awesomeness. characterization is my number-one priority, you know, so hearing that someone thinks it fits with canon is the highest of praise. thanks like whoa for this comment, man.

[rince1wind]

That was really sad. Very nice writing.

[foxlives]

thank you much.