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Schrodinger's Fears.
Part of me is afraid that everything: the universe, nature, life, conscience.. is digital, binary, 1 or 0, it is or it isn't. It's just got such a high bitrate, that there are so many variables, that we think nature is analog; that's it's unpredictable, that's it's chaos, ultimately unknowable and uncontrollable. I'm afraid we're wrong. Take away ( Read more... ) -
If you started college four years ago, you probably would have been done by now.
If I had a superpower, it would be the power to write meaningless or fairly innocuous things, that people take offense to or entirely the wrong way. A story should be written about the most hated person in the world, where everything they say is taken the wrong way; like they're trying to be helpful and funny, and people just think they're being a ( Read more... ) -
The U.S.S Friend Ship
Friendship is a funny thing. I don't think I've ever really been all that great at it. That's not to say I'm a bad friend, it's just I'm not really the type of person that most people want more of in their lives. I seem to make friends easy enough, but it's when people get to know me that they seem to drift away. I'm not exactly sure why; I don't ( Read more... ) -
Adult Swim.
I really have no other place to write about this because I'm fairly sure the rest of my online outlets are monitored, or at the very least could be.. then again this isn't exactly "private" either.. but I don't think anyone at my job knows or cares about it ( Read more... ) -
The Lies are truth
"The people are afraid and like all scared animals they lash out when they feel they a cornered, and like most fears, it is irrational because they do not know the truth. Even this is pointless, no one knows the truth, it is far too large for anyone to really understand, but they are afraid of not knowing so they connect dots, fill in gaps, accept ( Read more... ) -
The Joys of Ulcerative Colitis.
The first time I shat myself I felt pretty ashamed, like my future was a million miles away, and all I could do is think.. "I shat myself, how haven't I NOT killed myself through shear stupidity?" It was a shart.. and shit fart.. only I know it wasn't a fart.. and could get to the bathroom in time.. almost.. but not quite there ( Read more... ) -
Secrets of my unsuccess.
Whatever you think of success is, there is no wrong answer, unless it's attainment of money; then you're always wrong. It's easy to confuse this because it's often the by-product of success, but never really is success. Even if your goal is to "make a lot of money", to get it requires success in other means. Either through winning a lottery ticket ( Read more... ) -
ULC
Last week I was diagnosed with severe Ulcerative Colitis, basically meaning I have ulcer's in my colon.. worse case scenario they take out my colon and they make me a new one out of some of my small intestines and I'll have to shit 10 times a day. So far it's not looking good, I mean I heard that "pain helps your body heal"... but considering it's ( Read more... ) -
The Secret to My Failure.
This is really a note to myself, to the future me.... ...[sigh] god damnnit I'm doing it again. Every time I set out to do something I project myself in the future, like.. "what will this mean for me and/or the world if I accomplish this?". This may seem like the responsible and accountable thing to do, but for it fills me with anxiety. It may be ( Read more... ) -
Maybe I should try Karaoke
I really don't belong here. I say that not because I think I'm better or so different that people just don't get me... but because I really don't think I do. All my life I've struggled with trying to be like everyone else, something a lot people seem to have no problem with but for me it's like perpetually learning a new group dance, awkwardly side ( Read more... )