Im moving out by June. I feel completely free.

I have shit for self esteem. No matter how I act, or what I say or do, it really is shit. Why do I let girls validate or invalidate how i feel about myself. Why do I fucking fail miserably with every girl I truly like and feel connected with? Its like Im 15 again and pissed off and hurt and feel like crying. Every girl has been a repeat of the ( Read more... )

Its been over a year. No more girlfriend. No band. No school. Still at home and hating it. Paying loans and working. IS THIS IT?

Im not an overwhelmingly sporty guy but I have the overwhelming urge to play sports. Especially basketball.

All these news stories are talking about how innovative Radiohead is for releasing their cd for free, yet completely ignoring the fact that bands have been releasing albums online for free for years. Case in point the Smashing Pumpkins Machina 2 was an internet only companion to Machina: Machines of God, because Sony was too afraid to release it as ( Read more... )

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"Mass genocide is the most exhausting activity anyone can engage in, next to soccer."
Truer words have never been spoke.

New Order is fucking amazing. I never realized until this year.

What the fuck. Just thinkin of cable TV makes me want to shoot myself. Fucking E!, lifetime, mtv, reality tv all of this bullshit. Even if you watch it and say "Oh well I watch it to laugh at the retards on the shows" you still watch mind numbing garbage. People talk about how bad cigarettes are for your health but what about daytime talks shows, ( Read more... )

Am I seriously the only person who doesnt want to make money? Is there no one else who doesnt like being some consumer piece of shit? Money buys nice things but Id rather be broke than be surrounded by a bunch of stuff which is ultimately useless.Whatever.