What am I doing wrong? I feel as if I can do nothing right anymore to make Darius (my bf) happy. He says he's not mad at me, and I know he's stressed over the whole job thing, but why does it feel like he's taking it out on me. I feel like when I try to do nice things for him, and to do things to make him happy, all I get in return, is the feeling ( Read more... )

i'm still feeling bad with all these thoughts in my mind. i wish they would just go away, but i know they will stick around until they cause enough mayhem in my life that i have to deal with them. i know that i should talk to the person they revolve around, but that isn't easy to do. the one person that i have talked to about them, didn't make it ( Read more... )

i have so many thoughts and feelings in my head. i am so unhappy in my mind from my thoughts. it's not from postpartum depression from having my son. i know this because i am so happy to finally be a mom. it's got to do with trust and other issues pertaining to someone else in my life. i mean what do you do when you have thoughts like that and ( Read more... )

i feel so low today. my son kept me up all night, and besides that though i still feel weird about the argument my bf and i had. i mean yeah we talked it out,and we're getting along, but why don't i feel better about it. i guess maybe i feel so confused about so many things right now. i feel confused about how i feel on a lot of things. i love my ( Read more... )

I feel so lost and alone right now. I have so much going on inside my head that I know I can't talk to anyone about. I wish I could tell someone how I feel, but I know that it will only complicate things more. I'm not happy that I'm on bedrest because of my blood pressure, and I know that the way I feel right now doesn't help either ( Read more... )

It has been awhile since I have felt this confused over something. I have a lot going on inside my head. The one thing that I thought I was over, always seems to come back and bite me in the ass. It doesn't help that the person I want to talk to about it, I feel as though I can't. I know this person would want me to, but I just can't. I feel that ( Read more... )

I am in a very goofy mood for some reason. I don't know why,maybe because I actually slept decent last night. There isn't much going on in my world for me to post about except that I think Darius and I finally have an understanding about what we were arguing over most of last week and this week. Also my guilt over what I said to him Tuesday is ( Read more... )

Today has been a real downer for me. If i'm not having pains from the baby moving or laying on something, I've been arguing with people. The only happiness I've had was being at work. That didn't last long though cuz a few of the residents were being a pain in the ass, and I had an old man trying to grab my tits. Which is so disgusting. He has ( Read more... )

god i can't even say how long it's been since i posted on here. everything is ok in my world, i guess. i'm still trying to get ready for the baby and all. 8 more weeks! i can't believe it's almost time for the baby already. my pregnancy has been great though so far. i don't have a lot to complain about. just backaches, the baby laying on my bladder ( Read more... )

I don't really have a lot to say except that lately I have been so down, and I am not sure exactly why. I know I have been thinking about a lot of things lately, and I guess that could be why. I haven't talked to D about it because I don't want to. I mean I know he would understand, and all he does is sit and ask me what's wrong and tell me he ( Read more... )