wow, i never update this thing. i dont even really know why i have it anymore...oh well. so my apartheid class is quite depressing. i guess i didnt realize all the torturing and killings that went on during it. makes me look past my life and the things im unhappy with to compare it with how the black Africans still live today. its humbling ( Read more... )

so there was this one time...when everyone else was done with finals....and i was still working on my 20 page paper.....suck.

on another note...i dont understand people who can either support Bush or stand up for him. after all the crap he's lead our country through who would honestly do that? bleh...hes such an idiot.

whats new...things exploded again. i'm not ready to be friends with ray again. i don't know why i thought i was. he told me he loves jill...that was really hard to take. i think i always overreact with him though. im important to him as a friend. erg...i always mess things up. my heart gets in the way, but can i really help that? no talking to him ( Read more... )

Half of my floormates and I were just playing in the snow!!! It's snowing so much and its so pretty!!! I love it!!! I love how all of the freshmen went wild...there were so many people outside! This was a great end to a really crappy day!!!! Look on facebook for pictures!!!! Woohoo!!!! Snoooooowwwww!!!!!!

Last night I made a mistake, which I then corrected. I wrote an angry message on Ray's wall about how I feel like my friends from New Orleans, New Orleans itself to a certain extent, and even my plans of becoming an elementary education teacher in inner city are being taken from me. I asked what else would be taken. I deleted it though before he ( Read more... )

so heres the present dealio. ray wanted to visit me at college this weekend, but im home for fall break. heck yes fall break! so anyways, he was kinda upset but whatev. then today i go onto his facebook page and he posted on so many pictures of jill last night. he commented on her amazing eyes and "thats my girl"...that kind of stuff. so basically ( Read more... )

i was really doing well at the beginning of this week. i swear, i was getting better. now i think im really starting to miss him though. jill's visiting him again this weekend. obviously hes moved on ( Read more... )

things with ray and i exploded. i need some serious time to move past this. im not completely cutting him out of my life...i couldnt do that. romantic relationship....out of the question...for real this time. i can barely handle a friendship. if tonight hadn't happened we would have been friends again within a week or two. now though... i went to ( Read more... )

...i dont even understand anymore...

so i asked ray what he regreted most in life. he told me and then asked me the same question. i responded...and it had something to do with him. not himself...just yeah....its complicated. so now hes all upset, but i figure its good for him to know now, and to know that things will never go that far again. he says hes not gonna make me regret ( Read more... )